Wow my past posts have been a negative nelly! Reminder to you’re self…. DON’T BLOG WHEN YOU’RE EXPERIENCING A RUT. I REPEAT DO NOT BLOG DURING A RUT.
Haa. But really, so grateful to be out of that rut.
Ever since I straightened up my life and priorities and repented in January, the happiness and blessings in my life have been overwhelming! It’s truly a beautiful thing. And I’m so grateful for the knowledge that Heavenly Father is here, ALWAYS, and always reaching out…. Even when we aren’t doing so great at that ourselves.
And I’m grateful he pulled me back. Because being close to my father in heaven is absolutely my favorite thing.
I am so grateful for the promptings of the spirit. And how that is always direct influence from The Lord. I am so grateful that I was able to feel the spirit’s sliver of light during a very dark time in my life…. To whisper “clean up….. Go on a mission.” And I’m grateful that I made that scary but life changing decision. It takes courage! And I’ve already had endless blessings that have come from that simple (yet not-so-easy) decision.
I’m grateful that The Lord is testing my patience. I know that’s strange, but I really am. I have waited 4 weeks for my mission call, and that is certainly a trial! But I am ever so grateful for the wait, because when it comes (and that may just be tomorrow), I will be overjoyed with happiness. I know He knew that all along, and I’m sure it was His plan.
I am so excited to see where I get to serve. I know that it was chosen for me even before I came to this earth… And I pray the spirit will confirm my call with a feeling of “oh, yes…. This is definitely where I am supposed to be.” Because I know already that it is perfect.
I am grateful for the opportunity of going through this experience with some of my greatest friends! Abbie is such a great influence on me, I don’t think she realizes it, and I’m amazed at how close to the gospel she is. Whoever gets Abbie as a companion has seriously done something right in the pre-existence! I am so excited for Abbie, and cannot wait to hear where she is going to be called to serve.
I am just so grateful for this opportunity in general. I know that every time I feel slightly nervous or let down or jealous or angry or upset or feel like I will “fail” on my mission… That is only satan. Because Heavenly Father is right here with me, saying “follow me. I will show you the way.” And I know he will not leave me during my entire mission. He will be my constant companion, and I’m so grateful for that knowledge.
I look forward to continue in preparation for my mission. I hope that I can do all that I need to be as close to the spirit and The Lord as possible. I may have some doubts about being able to teach sound doctrine, but I know The Lord provides. Always has. Always will.